splendid

this has been a great close to my sophomore year. can't believe i'm halfway done with college. this weekend has been great. friday night i started out the night baby-sitting reece and darby together. i had to put reece to bed because he goes to bed earlier than darby. he was so sweet. he was just so tired that it was precious. as i was putting him down i started to scratch his back just for a second. i thought he would be out like a light. well, when i took my hand of his back he said "pat reece's back please". he said it several times before he was finally asleep. it was so cute. darby is potty training right now and doing a good job. reece started a while ago and has it pretty well down. so proud. ha :) every time i watch those two i think of how great it will be this summer. after baby-sitting there was a campus event, 'glow with the flow'. it's was pretty good. just a good time to get together with friends outside with many different activities.

today i woke up a little before 10--went and walked about 2 miles outside. it has been perfect weather the past 3 days. raining. then got ready and had lunch. went to the baseball game. there were supposed to be 2 but the second one got rained out. it was a good time--MNU won 4-0. i then went to coffee with a friend to warm up. afterwards i came back to the room and eventually started the movie "a lot like love". oh it's a favorite of mine, but it's one i haven't seen many times. not many people have it. i saw it in a friends room the other day and remembered today that i needed to watch it. so i got started but had to stop 45 mins into because i had music practice for uchurch. had a great time singing tonight. it is one of the things i enjoy most in life. afterwards a group of 10 girls went to steak n shake. it's just been awesome. so after i'm done blogging i am going to finish my movie and go to bed.

tomorrow i have a choral union concert. it doesn't start until 3:30 but we all have to be there at 12:30 to prepare and practice. i'm excited about it actually. it will be beautiful. after that markli and i are meeting our friend lydia downtown for dinner. we haven't gotten to catch up with her much this year. she lives in independence, mo so the plaza should be a good meeting place. after that i will eventually need to start studying for my finals. i only have three because i have already finished two classes and the 6th is choir. no final in there.

tonight at church we all reflected on the past year. how did God reveal himself differently? and when? those types of questions. and others. but one of my answers was--God really revealed himself to me in my loneliness. he made me thirst for him. just to spend some time with him. think about him. talk to him. i, at some point this semester wondered why the Lord created loneliness. i mean really! i thought for a little while and came up with an answer. 1. to find a spouse to spend the rest of our lives with. but most importantly, 2. so we may always be in need of Him. i think those could be his answers. i can get so lonely at times that i just try to find things to fill the void (i get very anxious) and it eventually always comes down to spending time in the word and praying. as we were reflecting tonight, i also thought about how much i have learned about myself this year. an incredible amount of knowledge and it is very fascinating.

i think about the potential of next year and being a freshman girl RA--i have no idea what is ahead of me. it could be scary if i let it be, but i'm ready and excited about the future.

that is all for right now. have one!

love maresalee